Reminder: It's alright to start over and start from scratch as many times as needed. The process will take time and may be frustrating and even a little discouraging. Lately everything contradicts itself and this will never really end, it will just even out along the way. You're goals wont be met if you don't commit to the soul work and the shadow work required. Relax, not everything goes according to plan but because of this, in the end it will feel as though it did if its truly meant to be.